March 23, 2009
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3.23/2009
Had another dream today concerning my thesis. Again, I followed it. I immediately woke up, took a shower, got dressed, and headed down to school to email my Thesis Committee about meeting dates and thesis defense dates, but, more importantly, to work on my thesis and the thesis defense. I just don't understand how these dreams work. Are they my subconscious talking to me? Is it God? These dreams are just a little too convenient to be some sort of fluke. They always seem to happen to occur exactly at the right moments, exactly when they are necessary. Even crazier is the fact that the impetus behind the dream never steers me wrong. It seems as though every time I have been lead into a perfect scenario. Everything seems to go according to plan.
I remember I used to think that my Mom's dreams, her visions, and the voices that would occasionally talk to her meant nothing. I figured the voices were her imagination, the visions were just hunches and the dreams were just intuition. But, I'm starting to think that these phenomena might be more significant than I gave credit. These dreams are very real and very relevant.
Lucid dreams.
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Today, I had what I would like to call a lucid double dream. As you already now, when I have an awkward dream, I can fly away on command. I consider those to be lucid dreams, but once I had a lucid dream where I literally could not wake up. I was lucid dreaming, and I recognized that was the case, but this is the first lucid dream where I met my match.
This dream was really weird because it was a lucid dream about me sleeping. Usually, when I lucid dream I just take command, and go to town, but since it was a dream about me sleeping, there was nothing I could do.
The one thing I did try was waking up, and believe it or not, it didn't work. This is probably the first time I failed to effectively "lucid" dream, so to make the most of the experience, I documented it upon awakening. The only thing I still remember was hearing two people talking about me, and if you guessed enough names you would be correct, eventually. Suffice to know, the idea of me failing at lucid dreaming was enough to convince me that I don't have true authority, even in my own mind.
I'm telling you this on the off chance that we can be friends again. I never actually stopped accepting the idea of us being friends, but it was my first time being back in school after a "depressing" two year hiatus, so I needed to take it seriously which I effectively did. Fall 2009 was one of the best semester I've had at Duke, but I realized that I can't get through the rest of my life without the friends that helped me get this far, so the invite to be friends again is still open, but you have to be willing to try being friends with me too.
PS: Read my latest blog, it's interesting, and if you accept my facebook friend request, then I'll consider us cool again.
Jon, I guess, to add personal weight to my apology, I would honestly say that dreams come true when you start believing in them.
And unequivocally, I still consider us friends, and I am just hoping you meant what you said when you said you consider me a brother because if that were true then I would agree that we are sibling, because if you cut either one of us, we will both bleed Duke blue.
Jesse,
I know you haven't given up on being friends. That's clearly evidenced through my feedback page. Yes, I could tell every time you visited. No, I didn't do anything about it until now. I saw no point.
I've never really too much against you after we had that fight a while back. Things for me usually blow over for better or worse given a few months. The reason last time didn't work was because you came to me with a fist instead of a hand. You came to me more upset than wanting to start over. Personally, the last time we spoke, I did not really have a reason not to be friends, but just had no reason to be friends.
Anyway, I'm writing this here because apparently your Midori no Inu site is either down or gone. If you truly want to be friends (and have no residual grudge), and are willing to start over, then I agree. However, I must say this... I cannot accept your condition: I do not use facebook anymore (I havent used it in more than a year.), so I most likely wont accept your friend request. I see no point in it. I keep in contact with everyone I need to via phone, email, Xbox Live, or in-person. The only times I use facebook are to get my pictures from my profile. (However, most of them, if not all of them, are already on my computer or external harddrive.)
Let me know if you agree.
P.S. I do have one question for you: Why? I still don't understand why you feel the need to reconnect. Meh. Maybe I'm just heartless.
I forgot that I blocked you on my birthday, so for that, I apologize. I would still like to start over anyways because I still feel like we're friends.
Meh, I don't care about the blocking. It didn't affect me. In fact, I didn't even realize you blocked me until you posted and stated you wanted me to read something. Other than that I never went to your site unless you posted/responded on mine. Once your posts/responses stopped, I had no reason to visit.
Its official, then. We're starting over. Send me a friend request on XBL if you want. Tried sending you one, but it says "The gamertag you entered does not exist on Xbox Live," which is a complete lie because we've been messaging back and forth within the past few days... and I still have copies of the older messages. I assume you blocked me here as well, but, then again, maybe its just a bug in XBL's system.
-JB
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